Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be different?
wonder what it would feel like to have a noose around your neck
or swallow a handful of pills.
Dress in a way that expresses your inner self even if it calls for latex.
Feel empty inside because you threw up or haven't eaten in days.
Feel too scared to open your own door to go outside.
Make yourself unnoticeable because you can't look in someone's eyes.
Scared of the dark even though your kids grew out of that fear years ago.
Cry yourself to sleep for no reason.
Eat until you are beyond full because its comforting.
Slice your skin open with a blade because you couldn't control yourself
Repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat. repeat yourself because you have a magic number.
Hear voices that no one else can because they are all in your head.
Unable to control your own body because someone else took over it.
Unable to sit still or pay attention.
Be rejected by the people you grew up with because you changed.
Have you really ever wondered how awful it is to be different?
To be ridiculed by someone who claims to be normal.